I'm listening to the song "I Wasn't Expecting That" by Jamie Lawson as I chew over the words I'm trying to combine in order to compose a weekly round up that isn't sombre and opressive. It's quite fitting really, I wasn't expecting many things that have happened this Summer, there have been amazing moments and very sad times. With every ending there is a new beginning, with every sleepless night there is a daybreak glistening with possibilities and with every despiriting occasion I have an incessent need to search for the silver lining.
Sundays have always been my weekly round up day on the blog. It's very important to me that this continues, no matter what, this blog was created as an outlet for my thoughts, to document my life and the weekly goings on. I've always insisted upon being honest and genuine when it comes to writing about my life. I can't really gloss this week over though, I can't find a way to put a positive spin on it, but I'm trying my best not to fall into a joyless, melancholic hole that I know I'll find difficult to climb out of.
There have been a few recipes on the blog this week, when I'm anxious I inadventently occupy my mind, usually with cooking and cleaning. I then proceed to nibble as I pace around my flat, especially if I'm waiting for news, unfortunately the news I'm awaiting will be heartbreaking.
It is very sad hearing that there is no hope left for a loved one, when there is nothing more that can be done and you're expected to accept this news as easily as the words are uttered. It's especially difficult when you were given a ray of hope at the beginning of the week. A few months ago this news wouldn't have even crossed my mind, now we sit waiting, trying our best to immerse our consciousness in lighter thoughts.
Making tea, telling stories that make others giggle, I stare off into the distance shaking my head in amusement. Clapping my hands saying "oh my god, do you remember when..." as I tell another annecdote about the crazy, impressive and incredibly entertaining life my Nan led.
That's the thing, through all of this I can't help but smile, I can't help but chuckle at the memories and promise myself that I will live life in the same strong, stubborn, outgoing way that my Nan did. I couldn't ask for a better role model when it comes to living my life to the full.
The week started off with another nugget of unexpected drama. My dad very nearly cut his thumb off whilst using a table saw. I drove him to A&E after quickly wrapping his hand up whilst reassuring him that he was absolutely, one hundred percent fine, but, that he maaaay posssssibly require stitches. My dad faints upon seeing his own blood and so I tried to downplay the situation as much as possible.
"Peta, if it isn't that bad, why are you driving so fast?!" he questioned as we flew over speed bumps on our way to the hospital. Errrrm....
The rest of the week has been a blur of trying to migrate this blog to self hosting. It is nearly there now. This means that in the future I will be able to monetise the blog taking on sponsors and advertising. I know that many will groan upon reading this however I see it as a very positive step forward. If the blog begins to earn a little money on the side it means I can invest in better equipment for 24 Hours In Today such as a better camera, laptop and even kitchen equipment for recipes and videos which will improve my little spot on the internet.
Yesterday I broke my laptop, I spent the whole day trying to fix it. I took it apart today and I'm now waiting for it to finish scanning to see if it can repair itself, before facing a return to factory settings nightmare. I'm not one for backing up and I have this week's vlog almost fully edited and ready to upload, with no backup of the footage anywhere but on my laptop. So if a vlog makes it onto my youtube channel in the next few days, you know that through my stubborn perseverance and insistence when it comes to fixing things, my laptop lived to see another day.
As I sign off this week, I want to ask you to do one little thing. Tell just one person, (or more if you fancy it!) that you love them. Tell them what they mean to you and give them a big old hug.
Life is about adventures, experiences, lessons that those you meet on your journey can teach you and laughter. It's about appreciating those you hold dear and living the life you want, doing whatever it takes to achieve your goals.
Have a lovely week and smile, everything will be okay. Life can throw you a curveball once in a while but it won't give you anything you're not strong enough to handle